A little about us...

My name is Ryan and my wife's name is Amanda. We are just two people with a lot in common that fell in love. Just so happens that one of those commonalities is Cystic Fibrosis (CF). We are breaking all the rules with being together, but love knows no boundaries.

Amanda and I met a few years ago at a CF walk kick-off event. Who knew our path's would cross again.

I was going through a rough time in January 2012, and a friend of ours mentioned to Amanda that I might need someone to talk to. Being the caring person she was, she contacted me to talk. We had an instant connection. She had previously gone through what I was going through, and was there to lend an ear. We started talking more frequently and feelings started developing. When we saw each other, there was a feeling that we had never felt before, almost like in the movies, love at "first" sight. Our friendship was stronger than ever and with feelings developing stronger and stronger every day, we decided that we had to make a hard decision. Being that we both had CF we had to decide where this relationship was going, did we want to take it to the next level, or was it going to end at just being friends. After a little time we both decided we were ready to take it to the next level. There was no turning back. We were in love, and took our last first kiss.

Monday, October 8, 2012

Anxious much...


So I have one more day ahead of me until I go to UT Health Science Center Tyler to see the mycobacterium doc. My anxiety is building making things hard. I can’t sleep, I can’t eat, I can’t work, I can’t watch TV, I can’t even be on the computer without something reminding me about it. My anxiety is a tad bit short of a panic attack, but I can’t let myself go that far. I can’t let my anxiety get the best of me. I know that in the long run I have to do what’s best for my health. I know that I have family and friends that will always be there for me that love me, and will do what they can to help.

I am afraid of the possibilities; things I shouldn’t be afraid of. I don’t know where this will take me in life, but I know that God has a plan. Everything happens for a reason, there is a bigger picture. I know that I will fight my hardest, I will do my best, and I will win this fight. I know that I will win because there is no way I can’t win if I do my best.

In two days I will find out how my life will be changing. If I am to do the treatment I was told about before, I will have a year of IV antibiotics to do, possibly more, possibly less. I will find out if that means multiple times a day, multiple times a week, or multiple medications. I can only be prepared for the worst and hope for the best. 
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